list of hopes

Feeling rather unwell. Must be the girl thiggy. My sis told me that mum wants to go back Muar tomorrow. I was really shocked because I thought it was next week.

Im quite unproductive now. I just want to lie down on my bed and not thinking much about life. Im tired of wondering if what I wanted will ever be true.

I have been sitting at my desk in the firm, waiting for time to past me by and at the same time thinking of her. Next week, boss and her family as well as my colleague will be in Hong Kong for a week trip. Meaning,there will be officially no lawyers in the firm but two law students and a accounting clerk.

Of course, Ms C gave me a case to do a research on it and I have no clue to how do I go about it. Guess that if i managed to complete it as fast as possible, then I will be like any attachment law students sitting and waiting till 5.30pm. Gosh,thats boring..

I seriously hate civil cases!! There are all boring and dead. Decree Nisi, Equity and Trust, Family Law,Employment Law, Immigration Law, Land Law, Company Law..most of these laws are taught in 2nd and third year of law.

Yesterday,boss asked me..what is ratio decidendi. Well, of course I answerd correctly. Obiter dicta? She put it in a simple way,words said just mean for passing through and irrelevant to the case. She taught me how to do research. It will come handy for my next legal skills exams. Im hoping for a competent partner like the Segamat girl....I just dont like slacker.

I need my bundle back from my ex rommie. I want to see how th respondents did their bundles that put the appellants to shame. Even though it was a miserable day for me, at least there's McD to put a smile on my face again.

Where am i planing to study??? I have not decided. May be Christmas eve..I should be coming up an answer. Just when I tought of doing External, I changed my mind..What trouble me now is, money. I worry I will cause my family to bankrupt. I never going to be smart, never will...

All im good at is writting.........well,who cant?? You see it's basic that im good at. i guess i have a lot to do. I need to advance myself to the next level..

Friendship is always unfair. We dont threat our friends equally. Those who are close to my heart which are oc and nc only. But I dont really talk to them..because im sick of them telling me "im busy". Still,i just cant let them go....well..

Love,is...and will complete us. Many asked me when am I going to get married..I tell them if gay marriage is legal,then my marriage will be between 30-35. If its not, then i will forget about it. Someone asked me how many children would I want to have..If only i was a man, i would want two. But im just a girl.Thus, children is not something I think about. The chances are slim to start a family.

Family making....If i go by way how gays start a family..probably a daughter will be my choice. Mia,will be her name..inspired by nc. Its just a dream...